Full disclosure: I screwed up and forgot to post this entry from December 18th!

With Pete taking leave for December and me back in the office, the baby feeding has been revised. The night before returning to work I made the mistake of reading about too much lipase resulting in unpalatable breastmilk. Berit had been declining the bottle and I was trying to reassure Pete that this happens and she wouldn't starve because I needed a paycheck. Lipase is an enzyme which occurs naturally and some women have more than others. It isn't bad for anyone from what I've read, but it makes your milk taste soapy or metallic after being expressed unless you scald it before refrigerating or freezing, and frankly, most babies probably object to soapy milk. (Lipase aids in digestion and basically "eats" the fat, making milk taste bad.) I read too much. I stayed up for hours, counting my frozen stash and thawing and sniffing and tasting, terrified that all of my work in creating a bank of milk was a waste and that my daughter could only be nursed fresh milk (what working mother could ever pump and scald milk all day long?) It was just another thing for me to lose my shit over and sure enough I did.
When I went to work I still wasn't certain what would happen with the bottle and the milk and the lipase. Upon returning home after the second day of work, Pete says, "I've tasted more breastmilk in the last two days than I ever thought I would." Ah, the joys of parenthood.